over estimated

I thought I can, but....

I over estimated myself. I thought I can finish some things on the specific time, but no. Oh no!!
help!!

I thought it was easy, but it wasn't when especially I was thinking a lot bout it.

Must not repeat this in future.

Culture shock!

I've been experiencing culture shock of my life.


I'm still around M'sia. 


another college's culture shock. really not used to it.


really itchy backside. 


when i was working, i thought studying better, but now i think working is better.


now is doing it for my future.


Until now I'm thinking whether I'm suitable in this field.


I'm not that creative, ok wait. shouldn't think this way.


I was watching "The Secret" again, must not focus on negative things instead. 


Instead of saying I'm not that creative, I should think, I can be creative. Shouldn't compare to others but fight within myself first.


I can do it. I must be more hardworking and think fast.


Go go go!!


Just like Jaejoong quoted "Nothing is easy in this world we're living in, Let's work hard"


Hwaiting!!

I'm back! to Student life

I'm officially a student again!
It's not easy for not getting income after working for a year.
I must change and learn from my previous mistakes! Change and be optimistic. Be good!
yes, i have time management problem! must really learn to manage my time so I can work part time.
my previous boss asked me if I can come back and help, just work part time or so. I need income!
so many things to pay and i'm not young anymore. like duh-uh. more and more responsibility after working. Really not easy.
Now seriously, just for the cert, but to revive my once upon a time passion when I first step into Alif. For the sake of earning a decent income to survive. but, yes all the buts, after these years, i cant stop wondering if i'm stepping into the right path. i've did personality test and all, and the 'tester' said i'm fit in this, as in, fit in this line, but not this path. .....

All these kids, lol. no. they're my classmates, only 20, mostly, are more hardworking, and competitive. it's good. healthy stress i guess?

oh well, just hope i do well, blend in this 'society' and ... just do well.

Back to studies?

I've decided to continue my studies in Degree.

I'll have an interview in KBU tmr, and hope things goes well. Lots to ask, actually I already knew few things.

I need that student feelings back and no more procrastinating. I HOPE.

I already tender my resignation last week, and I literally gave my both bosses a bomb. They were shocked.

Well, I've been thinking bout it for very long time, even since last year, til now, I better continue it before its too late, before fees goes up, and the feelings of in need to study for degree gone. I've consulted my previous lecturer and asked my friends bout it, and they encourage greatly on this.

INVEST in FUTURE. absolutely true. knowledge is one thing no one can take it away from us.

Financially, hope it's not too burdensome to my parents. but, to think bout it, the feelings to continue working is in need. DAMN.

ok, decided, means decided. better no turning back.

I like and kinda enjoy working in that company. I really learn a lot, even though is the basic stuff, but its really really a lot. My seniors are really helpful and supportive. I couldn't thank them more. I really owe them a lot, even my bosses, whom treat us to Bangkok mid this year. I owe this to them also.

I really feel guilty for this.

I just wish I could to better in these 2 years.

I even wish I could go to overseas, of course who wouldn't want.

Oh well, will see how tmr.

jjeng jjeng..

Tohoshinki Classic Collection

Even though I'm a late on this, they never fail me.

Love this collection.

It's TVXQ's best collection in orchestra arrangements. It's really AWESOME!
It moves me and soothes me.
Will buy it if they have it here!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=snRcosyUZlU&feature=player_embedded

It's really JJANG!!

AH!!

Can't Stop loving them, their songs and music.

Random comeback

Hello,

Its been a long time. Ill make it short n random.

I think, actually still thinkin, cont study or cont working? 4th time already in such dilemma.
Hopefully able to make decision soon after meeting them on comin tuesday.

One thing for sure, my love n support for TVXQ n JYJ never change.

Another random. I still dream of him! Its been ages i last saw him. Sometimes, i do miss him... Sometimes...

After all these years, tak ubah ubah.

Ah!!

Good night!

又来了。

很就没写了。
会用拼音来写不过一些就忘了。
想了很久，要读书还是做工？
读书的话就要出国还是本地？
加没钱。有不过不多。
心很烦。
妈妈很希望我读书。不容易呢。
要用到很多钱。
本地的学院不是很多，也不比之前好。

我写了着一些字，不知道是对还是错。
呵呵呵呵。

怎么办呢？
我自己很希望我可以读书。
我觉得自己做工，麻烦到很多人。自己到现在很没有自信。