Saturday, July 25, 2009

what had happened?

This is a story told by my friend. I pitied her. I don't know how I should confort her. She told every single details of it. As I am sensitive and emotional girl, I felt her and cried with her.
This is the story...from her side. It'll sound like mine. . .but not.

One evening, as I was folding the dry clean clothes on the sofa, He was watching the TV, and she was at the kitchen. (Oh no, I forgot this part , . . . .SKIP few parts) they started to quarrel about something small in the living room, in front of me. I had no idea what had got into them especially him. (sorry, I'm not suppose to say this, but he is sick not the insane sick) I think he got so frustrated. He started to say "I want a divorce" just when she went to the back. I was shocked and asked him, "Why?!?" "I can't take it anymore", he replied (If I'm not mistaken, X is that what he said? ) I just sat down blankly while folding the clothes and just think, nah, he's just got frustrated.

Another evening, I was watching youtube with the headphone on in the living room. My sister was watching TV sitting opposite me. My mom was holding a broom, and came out. While starting to sweep the floor, she asked me, did I sweep the floor? I replied no. That's all I could hear. I know she'll start to mumble more, and I on the volumn louder (eh X, u shudnt do dat. but, ehhe. I sometimes would too) She was complaining, poor my sis, she heard everything. I looked at my sis, she was watching the TV uneasy and keep turning her head to me too. And I even heard my mom said "He has gone crazy" in chinese of course. She kept saying that. I was like, why blame him? I felt bad for not doing house chores.

One night, after dinner, I fetched my dad to a nearby supermarket to buy some stuff. On the way, he was complaining to me. (er, i hope i get this right, sorry X) "I couldn't stand her. Her negativity thoughts, 3 of them also the same (X's mom, aunty and grandma). Words came out from the mouth is always negative. Asked if I am a man or not. What am I suppose to do? That's a powerful accusation. What they want me to do to show it? 1- Be patience 2- slap them and tell them is this man? 3- slap and rape" I got offended too. OMG. How could he said that? He has been with this family over 30 years and now he said this? I was sooo caught in the middle. I don't know what to say, I just kept quiet the whole time. He went down, and I was waiting in the car, what he told me, got into me, and my tears running down my cheeks. I was sad. (Poor X, now I'm tearing, pulak) I couldn't stand staying at home, I went to my friend's house instead (ma house, luckily I didn't go to my classmates' hse that day)

I was trying to hide from my friend. I was pretending to be cool. I was feeling better with my friend around. As midnight struck, I went home. I went online, and my friend start to ask me what had happened. I tried to lie to her, and I thought she don't know but I still couldn't hide from her. I in the end told her everything and start to cry. Luckily as my family members had slept. My friend's house were alike like mine. We both sleep together with our grandmothers. That's why Yun has been always my bestest friend. Thank you. (Thank you for trusting me, love you)

One morning, late morning, I was still on bed. My grandmother asked me to wake up and eat. She asked about where's my dad. As I know he was out and I told her he was out. She then start to complain about my dad. I was like WTF, I just woke up. (I understand that feelings, very frustrating!!) She started to say my dad said want to get a divorce after I graduate (I'm in University now, final year) I was like what? I didn't ask more, and my grandma keep talking about it. Telling me about my dad, complaining and all. I was laying facing the wall and she still keep talking about it. He blames everything on my dad. She said ask my dad to do some stuff, also so lazy. She even said, my aunty scolded him and ....there it goes...I was like..OMG..why is this happening?? (X, this happened to my family too, as in grandma complaining about me and dad for being lazy) I wanted to ask her to stop talking and shut up, I was so hurt, and I was crying, and forced myself to sleep again. I don't wanna think about it anymore. I woke up again, I was feeling it inside. I was so hurt, so sad. The whole day was spoiled with this. They haven't tell me anything about this. I thought he was just frustrated and saying it, but now, he is really serious bout it. I think they don't wanna tell me anything til I graduate. Now, I think back, now I understand what my mom said my dad is crazy. I think it happened that day.

Since then, I couldn't stop thinking about this. I feel so sad, awkward seeing them together at home. I want to tell my sis what happened but I seldom see her nowadays. She always work so late, well, she's rushing to a project dateline. Cannot tell her much too, don't wanna add her stress.I'm grateful for Yun. HUGS. HUGS BACK. I told another friend, a guy friend about this, cause I couldn't get Yun, because she was busy with her assignment (sorry X) I don't wanna let her got worry more (X, it's ok. At least u got to let it out)

X, I just wanna let this out too. I feel so helpless. I couldn't help you much and I only can be there for you. Love you always. You can always come to me. Next time, anything, tell me k? Don't keep inside. BFF

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

KPOP

I've been following every updates of DBSK in youtube. Thank you to DBSK fans who updated new videos.
I'm now a fan of DBSK since March, after I saw their video in Channel [V].

Ever since, I keep watching their videos, listen to their songs.
DBSK, Dong Bang Shin Ki or TVXQ or 东方神起 or Tohoshinki in Japanese consisted of 5 members, Hero Jae Joong, Xiah JunSu, Micky YuChun, youngest, 21 Max ChangMin and the leader, U-know YunHo. Others are 23. HEHE.


Xiah, Micky, Hero, Max, U-Know


I know this sounds childish, and I know I'm old for this, but somehow, I'm kinda fan one of them, Kim Jae Joong. This sound so old school, high school thingy, but, he's too charming and attractive. His body, well build.

Hero/ YoungWong Jae Joong, the eldest among 5 of them, however not the leader of DBSK.


He's cute, pretty boy. It's like infatuation on first sight. I really really want to meet them especially Jae Joong. Waiting for their next appearance in Malaysia. I heard they're coming to Malaysia with Super Junior. I don't know whether its true or not. But I wish they'll come. I'll spend and go!!
I now got a help from a website, where I can download all their albums. I even bought one of their new Japanese album , 'The Secret Code' and another album, 'O-Jun Ban Hap' given by Soo Har, er, since she don't listen to them, and she kinda gave it to me!!! YEAH!! Thank you!! HUGS!
I've been keep updating myself everyday, almost everyhour with their new or old videos in youtube.

At the same time, I'm doing the same thing for Super Junior too. Not that big fan,but consider a fan of them too. They're good. This group, the biggest number of members in a group, 13 of them. Yes that's huge. Leader, EeTeuk or LeeTeuk, Siwon, Kangin, ShinDong, Yesung, KiBum, DongHae, HeeChul, Hangeng or HangKyung imported from China :), EuHyuk, KyuHyun, RyeoWook and SungMin.
I got to asked my brother to download their new album, 'Sorry sorry, 3rd Album' I almost wanted to buy this album but due to financial crisis. I like Few songs which are good, like the fast beat 'Sorry sorry', 'Neorago; It's You', 'Why I like you?' and 'Let's not'.


DongHae, HangKyung, EunHyuk

RyeoWook, KyuHyun, and Shindong



Kangin, YeSung, LeeTeuk and SungMin


SiWon, HeeChul, KiBum

I wanted to buy DBSK latest korean album too, 'Mirotic' but also no $$$, So I download their album instead. I feel like buying their albums for collections. Just collection.
Ever since my brother came back from Hong Kong last year, he has been following few korean dramas, korean shows on TV and since then, I got to followed my brother too. I'm now a Kpop-not-a super big fan but fan. Watch music bank, other variety shows. Interesting, funny and memorable. Girl's Generation,SNSD consisted of 9 girls, are pretty good too. I now wonder SM Town groomed group artistes like DBSK, SUJU and SNSD are good and always top in the market. SNSD, new Single, 'Tell Me Your Wish;Genie' are nice too but not as nice as their previous single, 'Gee'

DBSK Hwaiting! Super Junior Hwaiting! Girls Generation Hwaiting!