Saturday, July 25, 2009

what had happened?

This is a story told by my friend. I pitied her. I don't know how I should confort her. She told every single details of it. As I am sensitive and emotional girl, I felt her and cried with her.
This is the story...from her side. It'll sound like mine. . .but not.

One evening, as I was folding the dry clean clothes on the sofa, He was watching the TV, and she was at the kitchen. (Oh no, I forgot this part , . . . .SKIP few parts) they started to quarrel about something small in the living room, in front of me. I had no idea what had got into them especially him. (sorry, I'm not suppose to say this, but he is sick not the insane sick) I think he got so frustrated. He started to say "I want a divorce" just when she went to the back. I was shocked and asked him, "Why?!?" "I can't take it anymore", he replied (If I'm not mistaken, X is that what he said? ) I just sat down blankly while folding the clothes and just think, nah, he's just got frustrated.

Another evening, I was watching youtube with the headphone on in the living room. My sister was watching TV sitting opposite me. My mom was holding a broom, and came out. While starting to sweep the floor, she asked me, did I sweep the floor? I replied no. That's all I could hear. I know she'll start to mumble more, and I on the volumn louder (eh X, u shudnt do dat. but, ehhe. I sometimes would too) She was complaining, poor my sis, she heard everything. I looked at my sis, she was watching the TV uneasy and keep turning her head to me too. And I even heard my mom said "He has gone crazy" in chinese of course. She kept saying that. I was like, why blame him? I felt bad for not doing house chores.

One night, after dinner, I fetched my dad to a nearby supermarket to buy some stuff. On the way, he was complaining to me. (er, i hope i get this right, sorry X) "I couldn't stand her. Her negativity thoughts, 3 of them also the same (X's mom, aunty and grandma). Words came out from the mouth is always negative. Asked if I am a man or not. What am I suppose to do? That's a powerful accusation. What they want me to do to show it? 1- Be patience 2- slap them and tell them is this man? 3- slap and rape" I got offended too. OMG. How could he said that? He has been with this family over 30 years and now he said this? I was sooo caught in the middle. I don't know what to say, I just kept quiet the whole time. He went down, and I was waiting in the car, what he told me, got into me, and my tears running down my cheeks. I was sad. (Poor X, now I'm tearing, pulak) I couldn't stand staying at home, I went to my friend's house instead (ma house, luckily I didn't go to my classmates' hse that day)

I was trying to hide from my friend. I was pretending to be cool. I was feeling better with my friend around. As midnight struck, I went home. I went online, and my friend start to ask me what had happened. I tried to lie to her, and I thought she don't know but I still couldn't hide from her. I in the end told her everything and start to cry. Luckily as my family members had slept. My friend's house were alike like mine. We both sleep together with our grandmothers. That's why Yun has been always my bestest friend. Thank you. (Thank you for trusting me, love you)

One morning, late morning, I was still on bed. My grandmother asked me to wake up and eat. She asked about where's my dad. As I know he was out and I told her he was out. She then start to complain about my dad. I was like WTF, I just woke up. (I understand that feelings, very frustrating!!) She started to say my dad said want to get a divorce after I graduate (I'm in University now, final year) I was like what? I didn't ask more, and my grandma keep talking about it. Telling me about my dad, complaining and all. I was laying facing the wall and she still keep talking about it. He blames everything on my dad. She said ask my dad to do some stuff, also so lazy. She even said, my aunty scolded him and ....there it goes...I was like..OMG..why is this happening?? (X, this happened to my family too, as in grandma complaining about me and dad for being lazy) I wanted to ask her to stop talking and shut up, I was so hurt, and I was crying, and forced myself to sleep again. I don't wanna think about it anymore. I woke up again, I was feeling it inside. I was so hurt, so sad. The whole day was spoiled with this. They haven't tell me anything about this. I thought he was just frustrated and saying it, but now, he is really serious bout it. I think they don't wanna tell me anything til I graduate. Now, I think back, now I understand what my mom said my dad is crazy. I think it happened that day.

Since then, I couldn't stop thinking about this. I feel so sad, awkward seeing them together at home. I want to tell my sis what happened but I seldom see her nowadays. She always work so late, well, she's rushing to a project dateline. Cannot tell her much too, don't wanna add her stress.I'm grateful for Yun. HUGS. HUGS BACK. I told another friend, a guy friend about this, cause I couldn't get Yun, because she was busy with her assignment (sorry X) I don't wanna let her got worry more (X, it's ok. At least u got to let it out)

X, I just wanna let this out too. I feel so helpless. I couldn't help you much and I only can be there for you. Love you always. You can always come to me. Next time, anything, tell me k? Don't keep inside. BFF

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