Changes

Everything changes.
I'm just sad and disappointed how is it now.

B*t#^

the title, kinda harsh, rude and speaks it all.

well, actually i wanted to say is just....

A bitch, is always a bitch.

Nothing can change that unless not a bitch. herm.....

Now I see it, and no wonder, being a bitch is always been easy, and easy to kick people out from life. Easy come easy go.

Sometimes til some point, regretted of what had happened, and hard to get it back to normal.

i've lost track of what I'm saying.

BITCH

color talk, and TWILIGHT...

I've attended a so-called seminar on colors sponsored by nippon paint in KBU. My whole class went. We got ourselves goodie bag from Nippon, an interior, IDS magazine, a file with notes inside, a color catalogue. Talk about forecast on colors for the next year and on. There're few Q&A sessions by the speaker, Denise Turner,an ID and color specialist from California and Mr Chen and Ms..Er...can't remember her name, representative from Nippon. Even Juniors went with us, sat another row with Mr Ken.

My Classmates

Denise Turner, from LA..

Well, prizes were given away, tshirts, books, chocolates...and the best prize was a book, "The Experiences of Frank Lloyd Wright" I guess..That is the book we all wanted. I mean ALL of US in the hall. Well, I got myself up and asked her a question and got chocolate instead. Anything goes for me.

After seminar, my classmates were planning for a movie, Twilight in One U. I was like..herm..coz I had plans, much earlier plans, a week ahead with Jan to watch that movie. Since the book was awesome. Incredibly awesome. So, I just followed my classmates, since they're the one who drives. I'm gonna watch 2nd time on the same night also..follow the plan.

We got free tickets and free set of popcorn and coke. FREE!!!! FREE!!.. AWESOME..I saw like row Q, herm,...maybe like 2 or 3 rows from the screen ..wouldn't be that bad. Free mar. Oklar. Bare with it.

We were there like, an hour earlier, so we had our dinner before movie at Kenny Roger's.. then rushed to GSC. Oh ya, on the way, I got a tap on my arm, and I turned to see, my old friend, Jean and Nicholas. Said "HI, eh eh eh, *while pointing at both of them*, got to run, rushing, bye"

My quarter Chicken, with mash potato, marcaroni and cheese and fruit salad, *wrong order, I wanted potato salad, NVM*

We got our popcorn and drinks,and we got awesome seats as well, VVIP..FRONT ROW. 1ST ROW from the screen.got to strain my neck and gonna be hunch for like 2 hours to watch that movie, luckily I'm gonna watch again at midnight. MUAHAHAHA..

Omg, throughout the movie, I was straining, and trembling coz cold, and sitting unstable-ly.GOSH.

after the movie, rushed home, took a quick shower, then picked jan and aaron up. then I called few other ppl, which tak jadi also, which they didn't pick up the phone. NVM. Raihan, Naim and Amy came. *planned* and sam, the last minute one. hav to sit alone. HEHE..sorry sam, but naim got him company.

luckily I got the tics booked. Better seats, Middle, Middle..HEHEH..can watch 1 point perspective instead of 2 earlier in the evening. Better view of the main actress and actor, EDWARD CULLEN, Robert Pattinson. He's soooo awesome, cute, cool, and omg..just took my breath away. Wished I'm Isabella Swan though. OMG..His smile..drooling...okok..

its just not that satisfied, after the 2 sessions. The book is much much better. But, kinda better movie. actually much much better then Quarantine. 'Leng Chai' got me over the satisfaction. HEHEHE..Vampire Love story. Good one. I'm not 100% satisfied with it, but around 70% to 85%.OKLAR. Just that, Edward looks so awkward. Cooly awkward in the movie. in the book is..ooooohhh..omg..awesome...just read the book.

Then, sent Jan back, went to Ehsan with the other guys. Talked, drink and eat. kinda cool. We actually sit in front of college. OMG, they have to choose right in front of college. The one and only table at the college at the wee hours, early morning, before dawn...heheh.

and now i'm blogging and downloading the soundtracks. The songs were good too and were hits, no1 hits in US even before the movie was out. heheh.. Fallin in love with it. Full Moon. I just like it.

GREAT lar.GOOD movie and cool guy to watch.hehehhe..http://www.twilightthemovie.com/, the website for the movie. HEHEHE

OH Ya, I have this Edward Cullen wallpaper on my lap top..AWESOME. just stare at the vampire eyes, his face..aahh...so nice..hehehhe

Edward, I just like gazing at him, staring at the eyes, his well structured face, so cool, makes me melt. *typical ordinary girl*

TAG, T.a.g, T.A.G, Tag, GAT.

TAGs....whats that?? herm..lets try...

Tagged by Ken.

A-Z

A. Attached or single? SINGLE
B. Best friend? er.........long list...who ever I'm close with.
C. Cake or pie? cake...cheesecakes..hehhee..yum yum
D. Day of choice? non...saturday..i think..
E. Essential item? lap top....i need to on9
F. Favorite color? Pink...pink pink...and which ever depends on mood.
G. Gummy bears or worms? gummy bears..
H. Hometown? PJ..born and raised in PJ
I. Favorite indulgence? cheesecakes...anything with cheese
J. January or July? January
K. Kids? er....none for now...wait til i get marry
L. Life isn't complete without? love.peace....and yes i agree with ken...money TOO
M. Marriage date?er...too soon to predict
N. Number of magazine subscriptions? nope.....
O. Oranges or apples? either both..depends
P. Phobias? ALOT...
Q. Quotes? everything is about love.
R. Reasons to smile? er......herm....just smile..feel like smiling..smile...
S. Season of choice? don hav any particular....
T. Tag 10 people. Su Jan, Alia Aida, Jayne, Debbie, Zeon, Lisa, Mun Yee, IqbalRyu, Astrid, Derrick
U. Unknown fact about me? herm...i myself also donno
V. Vegetable? er.....not all..i like.
W. Worst habit? aLOT..hahahha...
X. X-ray or ultrasound? x-ray...kua
Y. Your favorite foods? italian, desserts...depends on my mood too
Z. Zodiac sign? ARIES..the RAM..


next tag....another set...hehe

He/she have to come up with 7 interesting or random facts about them self and then tag 7 other people to do the same.

1. just being ordinary girl
2. love playing pool..even though skill-less and suck in it.
3. day dreaming alot...i mean A LOT
4. always hungry..
5. everything i do, depends on my mood.
6. always think bout the past...damn..6..is my lucky number
7. i love this number..


TAGged friends - Su Jan, Alia Aida, Jayne, Debbie, Lisa, Mun Yee, IqbalRyu

guilty

guilty - a form of regret feelings for wrong doings.

I felt very guilty for not doing my work.
I felt very guilty for disappointing my parents, family, friends and myself.
I felt very guilty for not feeling guilty enough.
I felt very guilty for not doing anything about it.
I felt very guilty for not knowing what is wrong and what the heck I'm talking about.
I felt very guilty for let things goes as time goes by.

What M I doin?
I know what is wrong..how come, I still don't have the urge to do it? To change and do what I'm suppose to do?

Haih ye..........

LOVE

I'm actually stealing this post from my friend's post in FB..heheh..sorry kubz..but i just wanna share with other people bout this post. its so true..yet it hurts,.darn...

L.O.V.E.

"If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself.
There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.

How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.
If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go.
There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you.
All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life.
Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.

Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you.
Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.
There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need.
They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need.
They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love.
They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.Remember this, and keep it to your heart.

Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going.
You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying.
You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.

Love always has been and always will be a mystery.

Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life."


I agreed of what it was said. Like my friend said, Love in the end its just painful. Love is not ours. And I replied, love need to be let go.

hed kandi 2

i like the vector art pic

i soo want to go for this comin hed kandi. the previous one was awesome..i had fun..we all had fun.

i really want to go...but works..my assignments!!..ishq..damn...

can i can i??omg..i wan to go to hed kandi!!

paddington pancakes + wrestling horror movie

I skipped class..ehhe..overslept..didn't hear the 2nd alarm..slept through...til 12.

I had 10 hours sleep and still sleepy..how is this??

well, my form 6 friends planed to meet up at one u...adrian, pak how, eng seng and debbie. Adrian called me along..as i told him the day b4 i got class til 1..well..i slept..i msged debbie..and asked her to give me a ride to one u..i couldnt get car.

deb picked me up at 12.35pm..and we head to one u.

when we reached, i called adrian..and ask where's he about..and i told him i don think i couldnt make it..well..lie to him..to give a surprise..hehheheh..sorry adry..

then...deb called PH..met up wid him 1st, then we head to paddington. i know its pretty expensive place..and its my 1st time.

then..eng seng and adrian came..ehhe..he really tot i didnt come..haha..

then..browse the menu..omg..the menu was super duperly thick. and the food..omg..temptingly yummy..the pics..the description..argh...only thing i wan is cheese..

we ordered..while waiting, photo taking..cam whore time..lolx..

so..me and debbie shared a burger pancake, and dessert. the guys..had their own..

my drink, frizzy mango & orange

PH's hot chocolate with marshmallow, we had to curi from him...only deb

the guys, PH, ES, Adry

Me and Deb

5 of us..heheh

PH's Double G sausage.

Actually its Adry's and PH's double G sausage. I didn't know sausage comes in sizing too.

Burger pancake..its called er..mexican DB.,..dats what i got from the receipt

ES's tokyo drift..no lar...some pancake...ntah..called tokyo..something..i don remember the name

my dessert..we all shared..its called tutti frutti thing..i don remember the name either

our another dessert..worth RM17...ehhee..but its free..coz..we spend above RM100..hehe..promotion lar..its yummy..its called treasure box

Laugh .....SS

hugsy..hugsy..we just look good in pics..

BWEK..we just know each other too much..we just did this randomly

Bills...we left paddington..and head to GSC..wanted to watch..er..tropic thunders..since all of us havent watch.but, no more.so we watched another movie..

cute lil pup..well..this is not the movie we're watching

we bought tics for quarantine..some horror/thriller flick. debbie..don like horror..scared..well..me too..but i kinda like it.hehe..the guys just go for it..while waiting for the seatings open..we took few pics b4 we enter.

:)(

random lar..

then we watch..i was..like..herm...i got to sit at the corner..to get myself comfy..putting legs up..hehe..then..adry, debbie, ES then PH. well..the movie was kinda draggy. there were few parts..i was laughing..kinda loud.heheh..for me was funny.its like..some wrestling horror movie..ultimate slam..hit..whack wid axe..i know im sadistic..but i find it..funny and char tou parts...hehe..and some part..were kinda scary lar..i had to hide behind adry..hehe..sorry and thank you adry..for ur shoulder..heheh..nice to lie on..almost fell asleep on it..heheh..

after movie..we girls..went to vincci..and deb..bought another shoes..pumps..kinda nice..and simple.

then..we left..deb sent me home..thank you deb..hehe..muakz..

who am i?

who am i?
a question i often ask myself.
i'm sure other people ask themselves too.
not to say, i'm born to a family, of a chinese family..like duh..
just that, some things are blur, not seen bout ourselves.
another question is...what and who am i gonna be? i know its kinda subjective.but..it always make me wonder.
Will I be what i dream of or wat i wanted?
who am i?
who am i to u?
who am i to them?
who am i to myself?
im yet to search my inner self.
hav you?

global warming+clutter+changes

well..i don't know how is that related anyway..
well..now the world's issue...global warming.
clutter...my issue..people's issue..
changes..everyone's issue..
so the main thing is HUMAN.
all caused by human.

what we do?
we build then we destroy.
like what..
architecture..
love...
family...
SELF...
friends...
belongings...

mostly everything..
this is due to??...
stupidity....
idiotic..
ignorance...
ego...
hatred...
selfish...
greedy..
CHANGES...

I'm sad to see all these. I haven't travel around to see the wonders. I'm afraid I won't have that chance. Mostly are destroyed, even, its partially gone, its considered wholy destroyed.
I really want to enjoy and see the wonders of EARTH before its too late.

I'm sad that people also changes drastically. It's like a culture shock for me..maybe I'm conservative, but, I don't know how to explain. I'm just sad, speechless, no choice to accept. I'm not surprise myself if I change too. follow the trend? set my own trend...why not?

omg..what am i talking about? its pretty random to just say out what i think and wat i feel.

HUMAN...*sigh*

Kenyir Trip Part 2

Continued from the previous post....

8th November 2008- Last day in Kenyir

We had buffet breakfast. Simple but nice..I had a lot too for breakfast.

The buffet counter

One of my favourite pastry, tiny blueberry puff and I ate it with butter and honey..yum yum..I missed it now.

After breakfast, I took my chance to ask the receptionist whether I can take a peep and snap some photos in the spa. She asked the Spa Manager, and she said yes. I was feeling lucky and grateful that she allowed me to do so. As I reached, the Spa building is beautiful by itself and facing the main lake too. This was the main chalet which belongs to Tun Dr Mahathir when he visits Kenyir, but because he seldom visit, this building has converted to spa.

The facade of the SPA

The waiting area of the spa

This is the manager..Can't remember her name

The interior of the Spa. Apparently, the manager, herself decorates the place. She bought the furnitures, and all are local. Good Job. She worked as a decorator/designer in Uk and few other places before. We chatted and its great that she showed me around and introduce me the areas and allowed me to snap pics. I am very grateful she did it.


This is the view directly from the spa. Its beautiful

The massage area



This was used to be Tun Mahathir's room


Mixture of fruits which I don't know. The manager uses it as deco

I found this set is cute

As we're there, my mom and I manage to tryout the spa, as my mom did back massage and me, I chose to take the face mask instead. Worth it though.

Stim on my face

This is my last view of my chalet (on the left) before we checked out

Last pic before we leave the place

As we reached the town, we manage to ask an old friend of my mom to bring us around KT. Well, they haven't meet for like 30 years??..and they still can reconize each other. As for that day, she became our tourguide and bring us around to many places. Amazing places.

Typical chinatown of KT, looks so much like Jonker street in Malacca, but wider road

Local tourist bus

This is where the monsoon cup held, Pulau Duyong.

Bazaar Warisan, newly open to attract more tourist on the local products especially batik

Pantai Batu Burok. I didn't expect it to be so beautiful. It was awesome. clean and muah....

but, I didn't get to feel the beach because, its raining heavily. Few minutes later, my camera battery died again. DAMN.

We went to some village which sells keropok lekok and other sorts of keropok. Its famous in KT especially. We even visited the floating mosque, Taman Tamadun Islam where all the famous mosques around the world, were built in this Park, but its just miniture of it. Its already dark, where all the lightings were beautiful, but my camera battery died. There's a mosque called the crystal mosque, which is made of crystal I guess, and it was awesome with the lighting and colors. Camera died. DAMN.

Then, my mom's friend brought us to a place, a 'warung' nearby the airport to have some dinner. I got to taste the Terengganu Laksa. Not bad as the soup was made of lemak, coconut milk. It was awesome. I thought I can't finish it, not to say a lot, but because I was pretty full. End up, I finished it. YEAH!!..

My flight delayed few mins then we reached KL around 11.30 tp 12. Can't really remember.

The feelings is totally different. Now feel more insecure when I got back. I feel much safer and secured in KT other than KL. Back to the city of crime. DARN...

Now I missed the bed, the food and the laziness I got there.hehehe..

I will have another trip to Terengganu one day with friends instead. Take lots of pictures.

Kenyir Trip Part 1

6th November 2008 - Kenyir Trip

Kenyir is the largest man made lake in Malaysia and South East Asia. This lake was formed after the dam was built in 1985. There're about 240 islands in the lake itself

This is my so called study/site analysis/holiday trip. I've been wanted to go for a long time, but the timing is off, and I couldn'd find suitable friends to go with. Some working, studying and busy with their own stuff. In the end, went with my mom. -_-

I booked air tics with AirAsia to Kuala Terengganu from LCCT,KL. Booked 3 days 2 nights package in Kenyir Resort and Spa. The package includes the accomodations, meals (2 breakfast and a dinner *damn lunch makan sendiri*) and a lake cruise of 2 hours to nearby waterfall and herb island.

These are the people waiting in LCCT at 6 AM!!!!

In the air craft of AirAsia

ME..in the plane

Sunrise....coming coming

Its up!!!

From the plane, up in the sky

The clouds are beautiful


Just reached the KT airport, the architecture of Terengganu Tradisional House




The view of the lake from the resort's lobby

Our chalet, it looks small, but its consider big, and its facing the lake!!!

Our 1st meal, fruits...LOL..





Me and Mom at the lobby


The View of the lake from the Lobby again after few hours later, and its raining heavily





Night view ...its nice..



While waiting for our dinner, just have to take this, with our key

My dinner, Caesar Salad, herm..I was too late to take the picture, as I ate half way.

My mom's tuna sandwich..hehe

7th November 2008, 2nd Night in Kenyir.

This is the view of the lake from my chalet's balcony..not bad..very refreshing

My mom and I had mornin walk around the resort, and it took us 45 minutes to complete 90% of the the whole resort's zone. That is my 'just woke up face'


They rear deer in the resort..This one look so cute

Going for the 2 hours lake cruise. Another part of the lake


Camwhoring in the boat


This is the boat driver and our tourguide

The water gushing..I likey

One of the 'deadwood' in the middle of the island.

According to a staff in the resort, Kenyir Lake is famous for all these dead wood.

Me and mom reached at the Herb Island

We even tried the Tongkat Ali (right) and Kacip Fatimah (left)..

Tongkat Ali is bitter and it taste like some chinese herb too.

Herb Island..a lot of mosquitos..Look, I have to hold a towel to prevent mosquitos to bite me

Capturing a Pic of myself, the lake is GREEN!!

Then, from herb island, we change destination to Saok Waterfall. Just few minutes from the Herb Island.

This is a type of insect..which is a shy one. When its disturbed, it curled up like a shell. Very cute..

Then My camera battery died. Just charged the night before. I didn't get to take the waterfall pictures, and some interesting scenery.DAMN.

We went back to resort. Had lunch, then sleep...OMG..so pig..LOL

This is the picture, at the balcony, camwhoring, after I woke up, and while my mom had another evening walk.

My 1st dish of dinner. It was a buffet. Simple. Then I had 2nd round.

My mom's dish. She had 2 rounds too.

BBQ chicken, beef and mutton.

Desert, small slice of chocolate cake, and peach cake and some fruits. Both my mom and I were too full, couldn't take much of the desert.

We were Full. Bloody Full.

A bunch of Avon staffs, the sales department, having their company trip in Kenyir. One of their performance. That's their boss, wearing the hat.

Another performance, guys wear bra.