Fun days in Alfa/ Project Pavilion

Days in Alfa were different during the puasa month, raya days, and few days after that.

Been helpin out, lepakin around in studios for days and nights with the right people in the gang. Well, most important that, the seniors and juniors were brought up together for these few days to make this project works and finished to the end.

I'm very happy that I was part of the crew, wait a minute, I was invited, I didn't do much, I help in what?...HERM..."tolong tengok adalah" hehe..well, I did few things. Just few things, but my name is still in..HERM....felt a bit bad though.

The thing that I'm glad and happy and enjoyed myself with these group of people. We enjoyed ourselves so much, there's a lot of other activities while doing this project, hanging out in other place, go for movies, friend's open houses.

The people that I hang out with most for these project are...

In the studio, Debbie meet my crew members. The last night of preparing the final Model.Not Shooting model, the house model.

This is the outcome, the end of the model before sending it to Pavilion.

Behind it are, Raihan, Iqbal and Daniel.

On the way, nearby Pavilion, just to a visit t see our model. And they're modellin in front of Maybank.

We reached

Raihan And I with the model

Part of the crew member of the model

One of the artiste's art work and it costs almost RM350 per piece.

Makan time in Pavilion

The gang that went and support Arabella at Lepaq

At Cineleisure, the only guy with 3 "witches"

Debbie, is the person whom I always been hang out with for few weeks, we've been close as before, we just love what we're doing. We're always be there for each other. I love you babe.

Muakz....love you girl, and I'm not a LES. We just love each other.

Feelings For You

My love for you is fading away.
I don't want this to happen.
I always believe that you're meant for me.
I had choose this path, I choose you to be part in my life.
It has been years you're with me, I know I don't understand your world that deep, but I want you back in my life.
I couldn't imagine what I can do, I'm embarassed to face my friends and family because of this.
You're my life.
There's no time to turn back.

I need that feelings back, if not I can't continuemy life like this.
I felt very very bad enough.
I'm disappointed with myself that I had let you go, I need to revive that feelings I had lost.
I'm sad and depress because of this.
Oh God, Please help me. I want that feelings, that passion, that intimacy to come back like I used to have.
I just hope I can go on and cope with this life.

Life is so unfair

I felt so left out. NVM
Because of one silly and most idiotic mistake, it changes everything. Everything.
The most stupidiest thing is, I cannot do it, other people can. I mean, other can do that, can say that but not me. Just because I don't really understand that person or that situation, I don't know everything.
SO???
I guess I'm not meant in anywhere. Just leave it then. Sooner or later, I won't be here anymore. Just go with the flow for now. There's nothing I can do anyway.
So next time, just shut up and listen. That's all.
Friends always.

Outings the whole week,and fun..and reunion

This mid sem break, a week break, I've been out everyday with, Debbie. Wait, almost everyday..yes..almost everyday.

OK, Start from last saturday, last minute decision to attend Hed Kandi in Euphoria. Joel and Jan been askin me to go..well, actually, I myself who asked them about it.

Well, I had wrote a post on that, shall skipped that.

Alryt, Sunday, out with Debbie at night, went to rasta with her sis and met Alexis and passed her a book. Went to see my seniors and junior (Amy, Sam, Derrick, and Iqbal) in college, watched them sing, free performance by them. They can sing and jam..JAM dOOH..LOL

Monday and Tuesday, I went to college to finish my work, intericad.

Wed, went to friend's open house in Bkt Jelutong, it was further in than my auntie's hse. I love his house. It's beautiful. I was mesmerized with it. The whole house, the structure (might be normal for some people) the decor, the garden and the lepak place. Great. It's Arif's house. He invited most of the primary schoolmates/classmates. I went in with Gerald's car, Michelle went with Nikki's car. We ate, lepak around. We even went into his room, and look and hang around..chatted with Abilash (Russia), took photos and talk talk. We were suppose to leave at 4, but we had 2nd round of makan, and we even wrote and drafted back the seats we had in standard 6, figuring out who sat where and where..We were there til 6. Oh Gosh, We just don't wanna leave, so comfy house. Thanks Arif, being a great host and I love your house. haha..

The girls some met after 10 years

The host, Arif and I.

Thursday- Went out the whole day. Went Mid Valley, wasn't a good day, I did something wrong. Went to shop for chicken wings, and friend's birthday present. Then went to Alexis's BBQ at her house. Met some few new guys, I don't know who, but I had fun there. Makan and played game, drinkin games..Dee, Me, and Jan, had few shots of Cam**oring...inside her house. Had few sips of wine. Was kinda high..not yet, still sober enough to drive.

Then I left to Picadilly meet up with few of form 6 friends. Mutton meet Pork. HEHE..we had this racist jokes during fom 6. Drank beer too..talk talk talk,..cam**ore til 3 plus. Left me and steph and Chi Wei.

Friday morning, Went to market to buy chicken wings for Kubbie's Reunion BBQ party. Well its a potluck, so Debbie and I shared to get chicken wings.. I bought it, cleaned it..omg..first time doin it,with my grumpy,sick feelings due to not enough sleep. Marinade with garlic teriyaki sauce, soya sauce, lemon juice, blended chillies, and a bit of sugar, for 50 pcs of chicken wings..

Had some nap after that, on off nap til 6.30. Debbie fetched me at 7.30, went to get some things in Giant, went to Shaun's house. Poor Lucky, banging ere and there, coz she's blind, half blind.

Reached at Kubbie's place around 8.30, we're the 2nd to reach, Subba and Surin were there 1st.

Start to do the Pit, Shaun, Chief Chef, and me, the lousy chef. hehhe..then one by one came..getting more and more people and I love the crowd. The form 6 crowd.. Oh yah, Kubbie's dad showed shaun one great function of hairdryer. Blow the pit instead of using something to fan it. The dinner, the fun..I'm missing it now.

We cam**oring, catching up with each others, talk,and talk, nonsense, jokes, everything..

I just miss the crowd.

Gonna meet up with Kenny and Debbie tonight, at Rasta, Tmn Tun.

TMR??...maybe Amy's house, if I'm feeling better. Now sick. Darn, and been lagging in assignments..darn..

Sorry

I've touched a most sensitive issue for someone I thought it ok, but no. I shouln't say much. I shouldn't say that way. I'm really really sorry. I really really don't know it'll be like that. From the looks she gave, I know its not alright. It's not a small issue, but its always been an issue..and I really don't know its really really a sensitive one for her. I don't know how to describe it. I know I've hurt her in a way and I've hurt many other people by saying and touched the wrong issue. I know after this, we'll be totally different and I guess this will drift us apart. I never felt so bad like this before. Last time, I don't fucking care and will, maybe, argue or complain back, but because this time, I really thought I was joking, but it didn't turn up that way. It's never her fault to be like that, and she don't want to and never choose that she want it that way.
And this time, she's one of my close friend, and now I think that because of this, it'll drift us apart and I really don't want it to happen. I really never felt this bad, and I'm actually felt so upset, disappointed with myself for doing such thing. I really regret saying those things to hurt her and this is my first time being to upset til I cry. I never feel the peace and feel the regret..all sorts of bad feelings for this. I'm really really sorry. This sounds like writing a letter to a bf, but no.

Somehow, this don't only happen to her alone. I think I've done it to other people too. I'm really really sorry whose around me, Friends and family and who ever I know. I'm truly sorry. I don't expect I'm forgiven, but I just want you (you and whoever I know) to know that, I'm sorry that I've hurt your feelings.
SORRY!!

Hed Kandi in Euphoria

Saturday night at Euphoria...It was awesome. It feature Hed Kandi, a UK based record company which plays house music. It was awesome night. Fun and wild.LOL

I made it and joined with 3 groups of friends, College, ex form 6 mates from La Salle and my 2 BBian friends.I was basically dancing here and there with these 3 groups of friends. College mates plus some of their own friends, er, Sui Lynn and Steph and Joel consider in one group with their own friends and another group is Debbie, Eugene and Kelly.

Debbie, Eugene and Kelly followed me, but I followed my college mates into the club, David, had booked a table..with 3 bottles and basically joined them. Most of my time were with Debbie dancin with different groups. LOL..

Euphoria is fookin expensive. NVM. Joel is smart to bring his own drinks and drink in the carpark with his other friends.

These were the crowd near to the DJ's podium

I never thought I can just jump and dance like that, but that night, it was fabulous, I let myself out so nicely (kononnye) LOL..It was fun and I enjoyed it very much. I much prefer house music compared to R&B, coz I can never dance to R&B. Debbie was high and dancing all night, she enjoy R&B, but she enjoyed this time's Euphoria too.

Mua and Janny, Enjoying ourselves.

I danced with this hot white guy, OMG, he's tall, and big (well, I'm petite), and I enjoyed dancing with him, sorry Ju, I curi your partner. HEHE..I should have dance with him more. My friends who were there knows what really happen to me that night. HEHE..

Ju, White Guy I missed, Me and Debbie

Thorn between Roses

Well, now I understand what Pui Yih means of letting of stress with clubbing. I used not to think that way, but now I started to like it,I mean clubbing and for me, it should be going with the right people and right place and right music. I'm starting to like House music..Awesome.

Debbie, Jan and MEEEE

Dee...can't squeeze in...sorry.

2 Hot Drunkees, Debbie and Sinn Dee

I enjoyed that night with my 3 groups of friends, and Debbie, being naughty, pushed me with someone..ISHQ. But I missed that white guy. Darn. I find him kinda cute :) I couldn't get his name at all, it was too loud and too noisy.

I even had this last dance with this Indian dude, darn, I don't remember his name, I actually don't want too, because we're leaving or something, but he keep insisting, and Debbie and Joel still dancing, Eugene standing at a corner, so I danced with that dude. We were a bit the aherm..close..his hands..naughty hands, I have to hold his hands to keep away from my body. OMG. That is bad..Next time, I must control dancing. No more attracting unwanted obscene body language. *OMG, I'm talking like someone* This dude, asked for my number, HAHA, well I gave...my old number. I can't remember at first, then, I recall it, and gave him that number. I don't really find him cute.OKLAR.. can swallow. HEHE..I just don't really like givin away my number to strangers in club, unless he's way cute and leng chai and AHHH...LOL..darmn..didn't get that white guy's number or he didn't ask for mine too. DAMN.

Most of my friends were drunk and high, and I am the most sober compared to others. After the party, we (Eugene, Kelly, Debbie and I) left to mamak, Darulsalam in SS15, nearby Asia Cafe. OMG, this Kelly, I don't know what got into her, she was smacking strangers butt nicely even guard also not left out. This girl, she's into men's big and nice butt. I was soo embarassed. OMG. She ar. But, not that I'm really close to her also.

Well, Jan and her friends were at the mamak, Joel and his gang were there too. We 4 sat upstairs, drinkin and eating, and Joel came and joined us after his gang left. I think he was high and too tired til he can just close his eyes and sleep. But poor guy, his hand kena grabbed by Debbie, until his hand was hurt. HAHA..who ask him to 'tak jui' Debbie.

I sent Eugene and Kelly off at his house, and Debbie stayed a night with me in my house. I'm supposingly fetch Debbie off in the Sunday morning, but last minute no car, "Sorry Deb, last minute you have to take cab home"

I enjoyed it very very much. Just love it. Thank you Jan, for the photos, Regret didn't bring camera, couldn't find the Canon camera but the bulky if not, I can lots of pictures I want. Damn.But Thank you JAN!!!..MUAKZ..

Next time..Clubbing in house music..HEHE.

Lower 6 O-nyt

As I am listening to this song called, "I believe" from Honey Soundtrack. This is the song, I remembered most, where and when I attended my first form 6 O-NYT (orientation night), in PJ Hilton.

My friends were dancing according to this song. A group performance. That was a memorable day/night for me.

I was treated as a princess that night, I had fun with my friends. Form 6 is the most memorable and most fun in my entire schooling life. I missed my friends, the fun. Miss u guys...

Drama Finish, Work start

I finally finish the hong kong drama, Moonlight Resonance. Finished 40 episodes. Finally.

OMG..its the most fantabulous drama I've ever watched. It has moral value, relationships with family and love ones. It's just fantastic

Now its over, I think I can concentrate on my studies. I've been dragging it for almost a month. OMG..what is wrong...?? NO NO..start work now..

OMG...timing

My timing is soooo off. I think I need to redo my proposals. Not suitable project and not suitable site. ARRGGHHH>...

There're things I didn't do enough. Like a friend of mine said, how to be satisfied or enough when I do NOTHING!

OMG..What is wrong with me.???

Oh gosh..timing is soo off...Help!!!

English 3

OMFG....my english have gone worse...to worst.

I can't even explain a word, a simple word such as criteria. When my friend asked what is that word, I just got speechless. I have to pause for like a minute and think how to explain to him. I can't explain into more simple English and all I know is 'ciri-ciri' in BM and I have to ask my other friends to explain to me and explain to my friend who asked me. I even went and find for English to Mandarin translation online but I still can't find it.

This is bad. Really really bad. Shyt...real bad.

OMG...I need...soooo need to brush up my English..

And sometimes I really don't know what am I talking about and I could see...the grammar..all wrong...tsk tsk tsk.

Getaway & Project Site Visit

Time is running out, and I haven't start anything on my assignment.

Even though I hate last minute work but I still do last minute work. Tsk Tsk Tsk.

Alright, I have planned where and what I should do for my assignment, and make sure I must follow what I've planned. MUST MUST.

Now, one of my project proposal is Watersports Resort. Sounds Huge, well, this is still educational level. LOL. OK, my site will be in Kenyir Lake, in Terengganu. It is the biggest man-make-lake in Malaysia and South East Asia. Cool right?

I'm planning to go during Hari Raya Holiday, that's the only available time for me to go without skipping any classes. I'm praying very hard so that I can go.

Now the thing is, I need to find someone to go with me. My parents said wanted to follow me, and my other classmates too. But, I wanted to go as a getaway trip as well, other than as a formal formal site visit.

I need to getaway to think a lot of stuff. Basically, like , sorting things out in my life by thinking..LOL..well, I have personal and mental problem, I mean not crazy or insane. Just need to think a lot of things..and just sort things out. I need a peaceful place to go. So, actually I don't want my parents nor any of my friends, I just want to be alone, but NOWHERE is safe. So I need to ask someone to go. My 'going trip' friends are not free, and I only can go with classmates. Obviously not with my parents. Even with my classmates, I'm gonna be distant from there. But am I bad?, I mean its like using them to accompany me but not with them. Selfish? TsK tsk tsk..

I don't think I have enough time to be in peace, getaway. I think I'll be busy doing my assignment.ARGH...

OK...Kenyir, I'm Coming.

And I'm bloody hoping and praying I can go to this trip.

English

This is my 2nd post on my command in English.

My English ...er...all I know is getting worse..worst.

I'm scared now. I'm doing diploma course now, and I'm worrying bout my future, working life and degree (overseas most probably). With my english standard now, its not good. I need to change and speak more of english and write and read.

I always complain I don't have the time, but actually I'm pretty free. :P

Watching Hong Kong TVB dramas, chatting, facebook, watch movies, and stoning. Well, actually more to imagining stupid stuff til I fell deep in it.


What is really wrong with me? Shoot, I know the problem, but not doing anything. What is there that holding me back?...Thats the thing I donno.

I'm really really jealous of my friends around me. They're better than me in every aspect. I feel so lost and left behind a lot. YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

Gotta think think what bloody thing I want...LOL...

So What??

I have a friend, X who has broke up with her ex, W for almost 2 years. I felt sorry for her, but she's still thinkin bout him, and she often said that she still hope for him, a little bit, but I think she bloody still hope for him a lot.

They broke up due to some misunderstanding on that day, but she wants him back. And its too late for her. Apparently, he can't stand her silliness, jealousy, always keep to herself, all her stupid stuff. What he just told her was, "I don't love you anymore"...OUCH...I felt that, I felt like slapping him..but I don't blame him, mostly her fault. I pity her though. :)

Well, she always tells me bout their relationship, from beginning til the end..and til now. GOSH.
Almost 2 years and she still can't forget him. Hello. I'm not the only person telling her that, but many other people do too. I can't blame for that, she often tells me stuff that makes her feelings revived back, when she was like almost totally over him.

X has crushes too, and she did confessed to one of them, but got rejected. Sorry X. She try to forget that person and W as well, but it doesn't work for W. She told me that she got new crush, and still do think of W. I was like WTF. I really don't know and understand what is she thinkin and feeling.

She don't club much. I always wanted her to go. Like some ppl said, it'll release the inner self, but she just don't. She's sometimes antisocial and sometimes she's friendly.

I am a friend of W too. We're not that close, but I could see he has changed, everybody sees it. He has gone worse, he has his own problem, I wouldn't want to care much. But now, he has a stable girlfriend and got a job and not that bad anymore, so, I think he's getting better now. I'm just guessing, and that's what I heard. I just really don't understand why is she still thinking bout W. I don't think he is worth at all. He has his own life and a new girlfriend. So, get over it.

One thing good, she always wanted to call him and asks how is W and all, but she didn't. Just once a while.

The thing is now, whenever she sees him around, alone, with gf or friends, she feel different. She treats him different. She just can't stop talking bout how she felt and all. A bit annoying. Yes, most of us, her friends, can't stand her. That's why she also complain bout she's not close to them anymore. HAIZ..

I don't know how to help her. How to advise her. I really hope she can forget and move on fast....really really fast. I felt pity, and sorry for her at times when she felt unloved. I don't know what to tell her.

X, plz plz plz...get over him soon plz plz plz plz....U're killing yourself, you've lost ur self confidence, self conscious, and u're often self pitied. I don't wan to see you in pain. I'm always here for you and help. IF there's anything, plz plz plz do tell. but don't complain too much..I always love you.

New hair cut...

I just had my new haircut er...last nyt...

My aunty called this hairstylist, his name is SKYE, used to work in Dry Cut, SEct 17, PJ. OK..Mu aunty called him to cut in my mom's florist, since he's off and the next door saloon is off too, ssshhhh.

I called my friends along..those who want to cut too, Jessey, Soo Har and Alen.

They cut 1st, then I'm the last.. I had a bob cut, I cut it like,..a month ago..then now, I cut shorter. I showed SKYE few pics I wanted, of Agyness Deyn, an International Model, AJ, a model from ANTM, and Charlize Theron.

AJ, ANTM

Agyness Deyn, International Model

Then Skye said, why not, something like them, but, one side longer than the other, and a V back. I was hesitating actually, scared and nervous. I never cut my hair like that before...but I just let him do the thang.

I love the new look of me..I love the style he did. I love the back...so "V"But from tomorrow morning onwards, I need to be hardworking to set and style my hair, PROPERLY.

I've posted few pics in Facebook, there's actually friend who said it looked like Rihanna's hairstyle. Then, it came into my mind, it does a bit..not totally..

I just love it.

This is my before and after pics.....

Merdeka Eve, medium long bob cut

And me NOW

HAPPY HAPPY with it now.

Left out. or Ignored.....I m Bad

I choose this route. To be left out to be ignored. But when I want to get back on track, I am left out and ignored.

Was I that bad? Am I not that worth it to be friends?

I am nothing to anyone, but to myself.

I guess Im not a good friend afterall. I think I am.

Just being emo.....

Project Proposals

New sem starts.

New stuff to do..and gonna be busy AGAIN.

Lecturer wants us to come up with 3 project proposals. Gosh, I admit, we have kinda same idea. Same kind of proposals.

I eally need to think out of box...Like what? I couldn't think of 1 which is simple yet different.

HOW??WHAT? WHY? WHEN? WHO? WHERE? all these questions often question by designers..and I'm cracking my head to question myself that. Just to find good, different and simple proposals..

Every sem for my batch is not easy at all..NOT AT ALL..scary...

I'm getting worried for myself now and asking myself..Am I doing the right thing?

Time tells..Time is clicking..and not stopping..SCARY

Sloggi - Art of Humanity

I got 4 free admission invitation to the event, after I bought set of underwears. :)


I called Debbie, and asked other girls too, but only Debbie seems keen and interested to go.

On that day, I gave her a last minute msg, and told her..we'll go, ask her to bring her younger sister along.

She came and pick me up and off we go. The weather that day was awesome, sunny.

B4 Entering, just outside the Sunway Resort

We reached Sunway Lagoon, the organiser tied handband on our hand, Goodie bags, dah habis, but heck and we enter through the entrance next to Euphoria.




On the way down to Surf Beach, at the escalator


We went straight into the surf beach area, a lot of people, from kids to senior citizen, all kinds of races, local and foreigners.


We walked around, look around, there're booths of sponsors, sloggi, kfc, etc.


Phat Fabes and Jules from Fly FM were there, hosting the event, games and all.


3 of us, took a locker, put our stuff, and we walked at the surf beach...and the sisters went to play the...er..some slidin thingy...and their whole body wet, I just watch from bottom.


Walk walk, event on the stage starting soon. We all gathered around the stage, games start. 1st game- Who can wear strappy bra Fastest. They need 5 people, so, the sisters went up, I was down looking at them..*shy shy*... 3 ladies and 2 guys..er..1 guy is kinda big size..all of us wonder how is he gonna wear it.

Debbie, won, and her sis got 2nd place...Debbie has skills and pro in wearing that bra. Coolness.Congrats Debb and Sab.
1st to hands up and say "I finish 1st"

Watched another hair game..hair spray, and this guy, got his armpit sprayed..OMG,..but he won though..


Then, it started raining, ppl around, left.....but then it stopped. We took..and cam whorin b4 we leave..and while we took our own pic, someone, a guy,..just took our pic when we took our own pic..scary..but..hey..got 3 pretty girls there..HAHA..aherm aherm..

3 of us just left, and went up to Sunway Pyramid..walked a while..thinkin what to eat, and where and we went to Friendster Cafe. We had a plate of Caesar Salad with fried Calamari, and a plate of Carbonara..3 of us shared that 2 plates. We had card game, chor dai di....before and after makan..


Something Nice



'Retarded/bwek' face

Then, we went to NOSE...see bags, shoes.....

In toilet, cannot escape the shot

Then, we went off...

Stopped by...no..along the way..camwhoring ere and there...

Debbie sent me back..THank YOU!!!

Signs??

I had a talk with 2 friends that I doubt bout what the tarot card reading I did almost 2 months ago, 2 days ago.It states bout the past, and the future.
This early morning, I read my daily horoscope in friendster, and its the exactly the same thing with the tarot card reading. What is that suppose to mean? I faced the early stage of the 'thing' I don't know how to explain this morning. I saw what I don't expect to see it to happen at all.
And this happen in this critical time of mine, rushing for assignment like shyt.
I really have doubts that it wont gonna happen, as I know what will happen, unless I got the wrong info.
I already have doubts on this....and really wanna just give up, as what I see and feel about the present and the future. And now, this happen at this time, now giving me mix feelings.
I think, just let it be, let it flow, and see what will gonna happen. It's out of my control, I only can watch from afar, and feel it only, but its not with me. Leave it then.
Even though I really really hope it will happen, I mean the horoscope and the tarot card reading..I really hope it'll come true, at the same time I have doubts.
What exactly that I want?? The Secret doesn't work that way.
Let it go then, let it to the universe.
I miss me. HEHEHE..

Continue with assignment then...I need to finish what I need to.